In recent years it has become more and more difficult for me to truly LOVE my mother.  I love her with gratitude, but I don't see the LOVE that makes us equal beings.  It makes me anxious to sit with the idea because I feel like a failure.  She is a wonderful mother and has done the best she knew how, but still there are failures that became large in the mind of my ego.  So large that even as I began to feel more love towards others, it continued to shadow the love I shared with…

I'm currently unemployed.  Some days that totally sucks.  I am bored, I feel wasted, I feel unmotivated.  I could have done a ton of stuff that was helpful for me or others and still feel I didn't do "anything" cause I'm not getting paid for it.  I could have spent the day learning more than I did in college or lounging in front of the TV and it all feels the same.  Why?

Because I let it.  I let my ego beat me up over being unconventional.  I am unemployed because of life…

Today the Spirit Junkie message in my inbox was about having a good relationship with our mother.  It is timely, because this is what I have been working on for the past week.  I love my mother, but living with her after an absence of two years has been a difficult adjustment.  I (or rather, my ego) wanted to blame her for all the clashes and snippy words.  However, I know that those reactions were my choice.

Families evoke a lot of feelings.  Often they planted and watered…

Surrender

: to give oneself up into the power of another

In the everyday world we live in, surrender often has a negative connotation.  It means to give up, to let someone else take the wheel, to give in.  It is the opposite of strength.  It is weakness.  

When I began this spiritual path, the idea of surrendering was something I shied away from.  I liked praying, but I also liked having my way.  I thought…